How did I come to this work?

As a child I always felt different, misunderstood, not heard or seen and unsupported. I was so aware of the deep feelings and emotions inside me and in others. I also had a deep knowing I could help.

My parents separated when I was 3 years old and my journey with fear, loss, separation and rejection began. I suffered abuse and trauma both sexually and emotionally as a teenager, but held it all inside out of fear. I believed that if I became the best in school and got the top grades, it would all go away, I would feel loved and the world would love me. So, I pushed the fear down and focused on my “safety” in school. When I left my safe place and went into university, everything that had been pushed down came up with a roar, which I now see, as my greatest blessing. I broke down, so I could “breakthrough!"

No one knew how to deal with the sadness and the depth of emotion and pain I was feeling, so I was hospitalised and medicated.

They were all trying to “fix” me, but I knew deep down, the voice inside kept saying to me, that this was not the answer.

They tried electro shock therapy and different medications, but still the pain wouldn’t go. I had to release it — it had to be seen, heard and understood. It had to be loved. It was in the hospital that I had what one could call, a deep and profound “spiritual awakening” where I met my truth, my soul, and accessed the love that was deep within but buried so deep under all the fear and pain.